Of course there are a lot of clinical explanations to what depression is, and its symptoms. It is hard for people who have not experienced depression to understand how depression steels your ability to think. Depression is like having a pet Zombie. . . Sometimes it gets out and eats your brain.
When you are depressed it feels like you are thinking in slow motion. Doing anything requires effort even things that used to be easy. Talking to people, deciding what you want to do, anything requiring mental ability is just hard. Crazy thing is that you can still follow instructions, but it makes you angry when you do. Your sweetheart can tell you to get out of bed, and you can do it. You can follow instructions but you just can’t think for yourself and you can’t make any decisions. All options seem bad. Performance at work and at school plummets often because you can’t decide what to do next, or can’t concentrate on what you are doing.
Sometimes you even physically feel tired or have pain. It doesn’t make any sense. You know that you have slept for 9 hours, but you are still tired. You know there is no reason for the pain, but it is still there. Over time you get sick and tired of being sick and tired. You just want to be happy, to be normal like everyone else. You secretly hate the bubbly woman in the cubical next; talking about everything she did over the weekend. You could have done all that stuff if you weren’t so tired and depressed, and dang it does she really have to be so annoying.
This is why you need an artificial brain. You need to have made decisions for yourself when you still felt normal. You need a Wellness Plan, or a plan of what you are going to do every day to keep yourself working even when you can’t think. It is a list of everything that you should do on a daily basis, a weekly basis, and a monthly basis to keep working. It lists things like taking your meds, going to church, calling your sister, seeing your therapist, exercising, everything that you have committed to do to keep yourself working even when depression has stolen your brain.
When you are depressed you simply forget to do the things that you know you should. The more things that you forget to do, the more depressed you become and the more the situation starts feeling hopeless. You begin to feel helpless to do anything to get out of your slump and abandon yourself to be ravaged by depression. A wellness plan is absolutely critical in keeping yourself whole. So get that Zombie back in it’s cage, and make yourself a wellness plan.